"Why create a blog if you aren't going to be honest."
I've had a lot of personal changes happen recently. Career, some family and some romantically. I always struggle with what to share on my blog and then I remember I can share as much or as little as I'd like - for me though it's truly being afraid to be vulnerable.
Which is something I've always had a hard time doing. Oh those secretive Geminis... I let all of my emotions build up inside of me and I become stressed, anxious and it also translates to me not being present, always thinking about what if's and focusing on the future.
Recently, more than ever I found a relationship with a higher spirit. Who that person/spirit is or how she/he came into fruition, I'm still trying to figure that out. But to be able to have a spiritual power to turn to gives me a lot of peace.
Romantic relationships will always be a work in progress for me. Now, let me preface this by saying I've only had one serious boyfriend. I'm only 23 and have years of commitment ahead of me but I think the most important commitment to have is to myself. In doing so that means staying true to my feelings, whether I understand them or not, which the majority of the time I don't. But I respect them enough to be vocal about them.
Who even knows what I'm talking about now but lets just go with it.
I've accepted freedom as apart of my life. Which is something I should take more advantage of but it's also something that creates some anxiety for me. I've been blessed to be in a career that truly makes me happy and that also allows me to make myself and my brand apart of it. I feel like so many people leave apart of themselves at the door when they walk into their place of work, which is unfortunate because you spend so much time of your at work. I get to bring all of me (clothes, personality, self) - I'm lucky to bring it all.
"What do I want for and from my blog?"
I'm still trying to figure this out.
Sometimes when creating content I have a lot of pictures but little to say -OR- I have a lot to say and no pictures.
I'm still trying to figure out the direction of Believe in Style but I know I have listeners/viewers... I hope I have listeners.
I just needed to write. Fresh content doesn't always have to be visual. Showing my latest outfit or how I make my favorite meal can always wait. I think showing you all a little more of who I am is most important.
Thank you to all of the blogger out there who make it easier for me to show all of me.
Thanks for listening.