Blogging has brought so much good. It's allowed me to think even more than I already do; it's allowed me to create. But most importantly it's allowed me to put energy into something I'm passionate about. I'm very internal and I'm constantly in my head and heart. I struggle with being present because I'm always thinking about what could of happened or what is going to happen.
Young adulthood is a rollercoaster. Now, let me start with the blessing of being here for that long and experiencing life. I've learned this year more than ever, that it can all be taken away from you at any moment. Growth and change is uncomfortable for me because I'm afraid that it may not turn out the way I planned.
Documenting my life for a year and some change now has been the best growth for me. This blog is something I take pride in not only aesthetically but also for what I've seen in myself. The most obvious being my hair. Because I'm able to see the progression - change and growth has been easier and way more fun to experience. I get to see the woman I'm becoming.
For the New Year I want to make internal changes. Being a better and more consistent friend is on the top of my list. Being more honest with myself by following my gut and listening to my voice. And to STOP being so hard on myself. The most judgement comes from me and that's what brings me down.
Finding my place and voice as a blogger is important to me. I felt trapped because I thought my blog only conveyed a little of who I am. Yes, my personal style speaks a lot of who I am but I felt like the personality aspect of me was missing. There is more to me than the pictures I post weekly.
I miss stream of consious writing. It's not edited or scripted... it's how I feel. There's so much that goes on in this brain of mine having an outlet is refreshing. My goal this year is to use this space as whatever I need. My diary, my lookbook, my why the hell did I wear that, my sanctuary.
In 2015 I want to make sure I'm living for my soul. Doing things that make me excited to get up in the morning, let shit happen when it's supposed to, smile, love but most importantly listening.